In 72 hours we will be done with our first preview for our Ed Fringe show Safe Places and How to Ruin them and I’m not going to lie, I am nervous. Its a lot of pressure. I’ve been working on the show since late December when we first filled out applications for PBH’s Free Fringe and the workload has slowly increased. I’m very lucky to be with the team I have, we have other Playthings stepping in to fill roles for our previews where cast members aren’t available, even graduate Playthings are helping out and we have people like Charlotte C dropping by to help us with choreography, and it feels very much like a community trying to build a village.
I have to take heart in the amount of faith being put in me by my forebearers. Some of whom have expressly told me that I’m going to do a great job and some of whom have given me the feeling that they believe in me by being available to help me out and get things done without a feeling of ‘not my problem anymore’.
It is hard though when people you respect so much leave you in charge of their baby. My friends built this beautiful thing with a high quality reputation and its now down to me not to ruin it. I hope that that wasn’t in my subconscious when we named the show.
Some people have really stepped up and gone above and beyond to be a part of the team in the past few weeks and it gives me hope – but I don’t think I’ll stop feeling anxious until about August 9th…. and then I’ll feel anxious again whenever a graduate Plaything or a friend drops by to see the show. Its intimidating. The Playthings have evolved since my first year, we have different tastes, different styles, different areas of speciality… but we’re still an incredible team who work together to make things happen and there’s so much talent in the group. Including a lot of people who didn’t realise how talented they were and I think it might be dawning on them.
So 72 hours to go… I’m gonna need a drink…. and for the heat to cool off a little because I’m not doing another air-conditioning-less preview at Ring O Bells! XD … but I can’t wait really. Even though Ruari and Amanda are unfortunately on holiday I think the preview will be the first time we see the show’s full potential and from there there is the inevitable wrestling with editing to tame the wild show – but… we’ll see the best of each other first and foremost… I just hope our audiences agree.